I still, for some reason, don't know who my friends are.

Sometimes people take things the wrong way, and then they ignore me, or act as if they hate me, which makes it seem like they aren't my friends anymore. This seems to be happening a lot lately.

I hate it how people complain about something, when it's also their fault. People should realise that some things are two sided, not just one sided.

I know that now I've said that I don't know who my friends are, there are going to be a lot of criticism and people commenting saying who knows what. I don't want this to be an argument discussion, just saying how I feel.

I have friends, but I don't know what to talk about with them. I have hardly anything in common with them anymore, and things just become awkward. We used to be so close, but now it feels as if we are miles apart. No one seems to know the real me anymore, and no one seems to know anything that is really going on. I hardly hang out with any of my friends anymore, or talk to them apart from at school. To me that doesn't really sound like a friend, just an acquaintance, which I hate. I don't have a best friend, and at the moment, I feel like I never have had one, which really sucks. I would just like to know where I stand with people and what people really think. I want to be able to spend more time with people, who know a lot about me, but I doubt that it will ever happen. The person/people who knew me a lot, seem to be pre-occupied with other things and other people, which makes me feel like I'm invisible.

Any way. Enough about me. It probably just sounds like I'm complaining and looking for sympathy, but I'm really not.